Actress Danai Gurira has revealed she was not happy shaving her head to play her strong warrior-esque character.

Gurira played Okoye — a leader of Dora Milaje, an all-female Wakanda Special Forces, who all rock shaved heads. She said she was inspired by the character who taught her, “You don’t have to have hair to be beautiful.”

In her confession at a Black Panther press conference Gurira said,

“It was amazing the idea of the Dora Milaje, the concept of them, and then to see them come to life, and then these outstanding women who I started training with one by one.

“Like I was the first one to get my head shaved and in theory it sounded amazing. Then the day came and we’re doing it today and I was like, ‘Today?’ Then it happened. Then you go into the restroom to wash your hands, and you look up and you’re like, ‘What the?’ So that took a few days, and then all the girls start coming in. We’d all been bald’ed, one by one. Everybody had their caps on. Then the pride started to grow.”

Seeing her head getting completely shaved took some adjusting as she soon found herself flaunting the new style with pride:

“She doesn’t want to cover up. This is her joy and her pride, in walking with that bald head, with that tattoo on it. I was like, it’s so subversive, and it’s so subversive in the right way to say that’s not necessarily beauty. You don’t have to have hair to be beautiful.”